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// March 30th, 2010 // No Comments » // Laila's Randomness, Love

He: That was weird.

Me: Yeah. Not exactly what I imagined.

He: No. I meant you flirting with a guy right in front of me.

Me: Come on.

He: Well, it’s a big deal to me. I want to be exclusive with you.

Me: Why?

He: Not exactly the response I was expecting. Because I care about you, that’s why.

Me: I care about you too, but that doesn’t mean we need to be exclusive.

He: Well, what does that mean? Does that mean you haven’t been exclusive? Then, who was it?

Me: It doesn’t matter.

He: I can’t believe this. Do you know why I work everyday? To pay for your necklace?

Me: I never asked you to do any of that. I’ve always been honest with you. I’ve always been the kind of girl that can never have an ordinary relationship

He: That’s something that you’ve talked yourself into.

Me: Love doesn’t work. And you trying to force on me, is screwing this up.

He: No! You screwing this up is what’s screwing this up. You can hide behind that crap all you want, but we both know it’s just a lame excuse. You’re afraid.

Me: This is why we should have just been buddies.

He: You wanna know why you don’t believe in love? Because you’re heartless.

Never. Again.

// March 13th, 2010 // No Comments » // Laila's Randomness, Love

He: I’m trying to understand you.

Me: You’ve been trying to screw me into submission.

He: I have not.

Me: And I let you.

Him: I’m trying to understand you. To know you. To love you. And I don’t know how. I don’t know how coz you don’t give me anything.

Me: I gave you everything.

Him: Maybe I was trying to screw you into submission. Maybe I was trying to connect.

Me: I lost myself for a really long time. Now that I’m me again, I can’t. You took a piece of me. And I let you. And that will never happen again.

<3

// February 13th, 2010 // No Comments » // Laila's Randomness, Love

him: i made a terrible mistake. i love you. do you still love me at all?

me: i don’t know if i can sort of love you.

him: i can get by with a little bit of love for now.

me: that’s not me. I know how hard you’re trying. i’m not completely oblivious. and it would be so much easier if i could make myself forget. but when i look at you, i just feel regret and sadness.

him: that’s not a problem. whatever it takes. just tell me what to do.

me: i don’t know.

him: i’m realistic. i’m human. i’m not perfect, you said it yourself.

me: i know you’re not. but i was so in love with you and now i’m just so disappointed. and i don’t trust you anymore.

him: no, i’m so sorry. i want you to expect everything from me. you’re not going to get it but i am going to promise to try to give it. i love you.

Don`t be afraid

// February 7th, 2010 // No Comments » // Laila's Randomness, Love

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let you down probably will.

You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it’s harder every time.

You’ll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You’ll fight with your best friend. You’ll blame a new love for things an old one did. You’ll cry because time is passing too fast, and you’ll eventually lose someoneyou love.

So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you’ve never been hurt because every
sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you’ll never get back.

Don’t be afraid that your life will end,
be afraid that it will never begin.

By your side – Sade

// February 5th, 2010 // No Comments » // Love, Music

Beautiful song…

Goodbye

// January 24th, 2010 // No Comments » // Laila's Randomness, Love

I had to say goodbye more times than I would have liked but everyone can say that. And no matter how many times we do it, even if it is for the greater good, it still stings. And though, we’ll never forget what we’ve given up, we owe it to ourselves to keep moving forward. What we can’t do is live our lives, afraid of the next goodbye. Because chances are, they’re not going to stop. The trick is to recognize when a goodbye can be a good thing, when it’s a chance to start again.

// i miss you //

// January 18th, 2010 // No Comments » // Laila's Randomness, Love

Life sucks without you. I miss you. It’s not like we had a hey, we had some great times, keep in touch type of thing.

It’s more like i can’t eat, i can’t sleep, it’s like i sometimes forget how to laugh & i think u took my heart with you…

Underneath it all…

// January 15th, 2010 // No Comments » // Laila's Randomness, Love

Women will always drive men nuts. But men should have compassion. For we only behave that way, to protect ourselves.

We date men we feel superior to so we can’t get hurt. We almost miss out on stuff, that we feel we’re not good enough for.

Once in a while, we find the courage to just be ourselves and it’s worth the wait.

The unforgiven

// November 15th, 2009 // No Comments » // Laila's Randomness, Love

You made your assumption. You decided I did something. You didn’t ask. You didn’t hang around to talk. I am your girlfriend and you didn’t give me the benefit of the doubt.

So you know what? I can’t forgive you either.

Just wish one thing could stay the same…

// November 13th, 2009 // No Comments » // Laila's Randomness, Love

Friend: Why are you still holding on to him? He has clearly moved on, why don’t you?

Me: I don’t know. It’s just that everything’s changing so fast. And I really thought he & I could be something. Just wish one thing could stay the same.