lheylah.com

Death Note – I’ll Be Missing You

// January 24th, 2008 // No Comments » // Music, youtube

This is dedicated for Sparky & Mishka, We miss you guys! But we’ll be seeing you very soon.

Yeah, this right here goes out to everyone
that has lost someone or that
truly loved….
Check it out….

Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show
I laced the track, you locked the flow
So far from hangin’ on the block for dough
Notorius they got to know that
Life ain’t always what it seem to be
Words can’t express what you mean to me!
Even though you’re gone we still a team
Thru your family I’ll fulfill your dreams
In the future can’t wait to see if you’ll
Open up the gates for me
Reminisce sometime the night they took my friend
Try to black it out, but it plays again
When it’s real feelings hard to conceal
Can’t imagine all the pain I feel
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you still livin’ your life after death

CHORUS:
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Everytime I pray
I’ll be missing you

Thinking of the day
When you went away
What a life to take
What a bond to break
I’ll be missing you

(We miss you, Big….)

It’s kinda hard wit you not around
Know you in Heaven smilin’ down
Watching us while we pray for you
Everyday we pray for you
Till the day we meet again
In my heart is where I keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts, Big, I just can’t define
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us and the six shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me takin’ flics
Makin’ hits, stages they receive you on
Still can’t believe you’re gone
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you still livin’ your life after death

CHORUS

Somebody tell me why…

One black morning
When this life is over
I know, I’ll see your face

Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day

Chorus

Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day

Chorus

Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day

(We miss you)

Fade to Black

// November 16th, 2007 // No Comments » // Canada, Friends, Music, University

My days pass so quickly that I forget what day it is. Next thing I know, the weekend is over and it’s back to school and work everyday for me. I’ve gone from physically weak to bored to a walking zombie who haven’t exactly been paying attention to anything. I’ve literally told friends to f*ck off as I’m tired being a “friend.” When we are friends, I would do what it takes necessary to keep in touch, email, call, sms, etc. But if I feel it’s a one way street, you might as well just be compared to my MSN or Facebook friends I keep online just for the sake of keeping them listed there. If that’s how you lowered the strength of our friendship, then I know that’s okay with you and you just wouldn’t care if we did keep in touch or not. Personally I know for sure it’s not my loss…

But good thing, I’ve been paying attention to school more. I’ve been going to the library more than I thought possible and it’s so quiet and leaves me to my own thoughts. I draw, I listen to my ipod, go online, study, write my essays, work on my other paper due for Cybernation, focus on Marketing, concentrate on my Accounting and complete what needs to be done for school. Met Jess today…Had lunch with her at Square One after my lab, checked out some stores for some good winter jackets and headed to the library to try to do some studying. I’m mad about not receiving enough OSAP for next semester, but it’s alright I guess because at the end, I really wouldn’t have to pay that much. I just have to work my ass off everyday till end of Jan to get books, pay off university tuition and save up for next semester. So far, I worked twice this week and InshAllah tomorrow as well from 7am – 3pm. I’ve been listening to metal music again like Metallica and good ol’ alternative The Cranberries all day long, whether I’m on the road to school, work,or running errands. Only one person, a good friend of mine for 4 yrs now, Rami, knows the words, knows what I’m going thru, understands me, and has been really supportive. He’s been advising me all this time and is great.

To him, I dedicate this song…

Life it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free

Things are not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this cant be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now hes gone

No one but me can save myself, but its too late
Now I cant think, think why I should even try

Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm, now I will just say good-bye

xoxo,
Laila